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Name: jenna!!
Country: United States
State: New Jersey
Metro: Princeton
Birthday: 12/15/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: fall out boy - paramore - avenged sevenfold - from first to last - fear against the march of flames - kiros - daze - gatsbys american dream - underoath - mxpx - my american heart - funeral for a friend - the academy is - panic! at the disco - motion city soundtrack - atreyu - alexisonfire - dropkick murphys
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Entertainment
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AIM:  tessellationsx
AIM:  ohboyiam dangr s
Member Since:
4/16/2005
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i'll show you that place in my chest where my heart still tries to beat.
i eat heart attacks.
i'll stop stabbing when you stop screaming.
if you beg for wings you'll only get shot down.
if your heart was broken. you would be dead.
would you please take off your lab coat? kiss me as we roll through every chemical. would you please put on your dance shoes? cause i'm sick of dancin all alone.
one day i will realize, you were never worth my time.
kill me while i still believe that you were meant for me.
in the recovery room, i wrote a list of all the ways that you are beautiful. it goes on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on.
and i hope this irritates you as much as it does to me for even thinking that i don't want you. | | |
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what can i say to you that we havn't said before? i've had enough and i can't take it anymore and now what should i do? am i better off without you? all this talk and nothing's changed.
and i hope the next town you run to has a girl that looks a bit like me, with the same bright eyes and smile, but she won't have the touch i have, she won't have the love i had, you think anyone can send chills up your spine?
did you really think that it was over when you hung up the phone and said goodbye? and did you ever think that it would be too much? i can't leave without saying goodbye.
i feel that sometimes, nobody's ever held me down and forced me to cry or made me hug them or got to the inside of me. it's like i say, 'oh, i'm fine' and i walk away and nobody has ever said 'no, you're not.'
you know what? no. get out, i'm tired of hearing about how nothing in your life is good enough, including me.
feel your heart it breaks without your chest now, try to get some rest now, sleep's not coming easy for a while.
but don't worry sweetie because i already know, and this is the last night that you'll be keeping secrets from me.
i can't confront you, i never could do that which might hurt you, so try and be cool when i say, this way is a waterslide away from me that takes you further every day.
i could explode, you never know, it would suit the moment perfectly.
she'd cry herself to sleep, but she don't dare.
to me, you're strange, and you're beautiful, you'd be so perfect with me, but you just can't see, you turn every head, but you don't see me.
on this coldest of january nights, we drive out past the runways and watch the planes go flying by, the runway lines are the deepest blue like the color of your eyes, so close them tight and kiss me one last time.
hello, my name is distance, and i really don't care if i never wake up again.
and never will i give up trying cause you're everything to me.
is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
and i for one can see no blood from the hearts and the wrists you allegdly slit.
i guess, i remember every glance you shot me.
so go past the lights and all the excuses, you could have left 'sincerely yours,' don't you think it's obvious that i want to say more? cause anything too daring to say to you, will be said in this letter, then burned away, so you never realize. i'm here.
and i hang like a star, fucking glow in the dark for all those starving eyes to see.
a beautiful baby blue sky that's looking up at you, now watch it fade away.
you never knew, well i never told you, everything i know about breaking hearts, i learned from you, it's true.
tonight i'll stand in the light so you can count how many tears fall from my eyes. this time i'll be alright, my heart can't get any worse.
i'm on fire but the day is feeling hopeless, you could see me burning, but the burnings turning smokeless, soon i won't feel at all.
my problem is you made me melt. and i don't want to be frozen anymore.
i'm finding my way back to you and everything i used to be, and waiting is all that i can do, until you find your way back to me.
this obsession, i must admit, has shaken me up a bit.
i'm sick of feeling like i need you, knowing i never did, but i miss you.
i'm not sleeping and you're not here, the thought stops my heart.
i'm sick of always crying, i don't wanna be sick of trying, but you've gotta want me too.
these nights i get high just from breathing when i lie with you here, i'm sure that i'm real like that firework over the freeway, i could stay here all day but that's not how you feel.
there's a beautiful sky tonight and if you wer here we could share this, but you're gone.
i don't want to talk anymore, i'm afraid of what i might say. i bite my tongue every time you come around cause blood in my mouth beats blood on the ground.
i breathe by your looks and you look right through me. | | |
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Let's destroy each other, Cause we're too cool for lovelines, soft kisses over cheap wine. Smoke me baby like your last cigarette, whisper to me, say 'you'll never forget.' Could you break my heart a little more? Shove my body up against yours & kiss me like you mean it. Anything worth a taste burns as it goes down. Could you tell me I'm so Audrey Hephburn when my hair falls to the side? And say girl, I'm not here to love you tender, I'm just here for the ride. Let's blind ourselves by love and be deaf to all who say it's fatal. It's not that we don't know, its just that we don't care.
If I were king of this night, would you become my queen?
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.
I'll have to walk a thousand miles just to find the ground deserving of your feet.
You could throw me down and walk on me
and I'd just look on through my love and through the haze.
She hits the lights.
This doesn't seem quite fair.
Despite everything he learned from his friends,
he doesn't feel so prepared.
She's breathing quiet and smooth.
He's gasping for air.
"This is the first and last time," he says.
She fakes a smile and presses her hips into his.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He's holding back from telling her
exactly what it really feels like.
I don't wanna try to be loved anymore. I don't wanna be scared anymore, or to kill anymore. I don't want to kill anymore. I don't wanna be alone anymore. I don't wanna be anything anymore. I don't need a reason to kill myself. I need a reason not to... there isn't one.
Small, simple, safe price
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals
And I am not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart
Love is not like anything
Especially a fucking knife.
Your hands on me
I'm pressing hard against your jeans
Your tongue in my mouth
Trying to keep the words from coming out
You didn't care to know
Who else may have been you before.
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself
It doesn't matter, I'll probably get hit by a car anyway. | | |
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here we go, take a bow
because we're over now
you were not there for me
when i needed you
and honestly i think i love you more
if that's possible
i think i love you more
it's over now and i can't save you
some things are better left unsaid
and all the promises i made were so stupid
maybe we'll be able to be friends
if that's possible
two days gone, i'm alright
but you can't sleep at night
what is it that you don't like?
that i'm happy now?
i was playing with your head
and i closed the door
i was kidding when i said i loved you more
when you are out there on the road for several weeks of shows and when you scan the radio, i hope this song will guide you home.
a fucking waste of my time is all that you've become
the light in her eyes goes out,
I never had light in my eyes anyway.
maybe things are different these days;
it's good for everybody to hurt somebody once in a while.
look how pretty she is when she falls down
there's no beauty in bleeding mascara.
if it were to rain today in describing you and me
i'd stand on a mountain top and scream
"damn you
you will not ruin this again"
take these things from someone else.
My fingers ache from clenching this fist
and my eyes still burn
and I'm pouring my heart through
these telephone wires
I'm getting the notion
that you've become tired
four more exits to my apartment
but i am tempted to keep the car in drive
and leave this shit behind | | |
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i miss what we had, i need you so badly.
you know it starts here, outside waiting in the cold
kiss me once in the snow, i swear it never gets old
but i will promise you i can make it warmer next year
you know i came here when i needed your soft voice
i needed to hear something that sounded like an answer
now i stay here, and everyday i get one.
and i'd give up forever to touch you
cause i know that you feel me somehow
you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be.
let's do coke like we're vacuums
and dance away our troubles before we drive our cars off bridges.
when the president talks to god
i wonder which one plays the better cop
we should find some jobs, the ghetto's broke
no, they're lazy, george, i say we don't
just give em more liquor stores and dirty coke
that's what god recommends.
my ribs have parted ways, they said
'we're not going to protect this heart you have.'
oh, did i mention
when i see you it stings like hell
due to the fact
that we could have something that will never happen.
and now you say that
you say you love me
well i may have your heart
he has your body
and now you swear that you're being honest
but you're not honest
and you never could be.
i don't care who you've been dining with these days
it's more than fair
much rather be drinking anyways
with my friend peter
who lives so fucking far away
yet not as far as you
even though you live right down my fucking street.
so now i've made the decision
to walk behind you in the dark for the rest of my life
and i'll never show my face again
because it's too scarred and bloody to be enough
and i don't have the right stuff-
all i have are the empty boxes to carry away your heart
and i think that tonight i will sneak into your house
and i'll sing songs and wake you up
and i'll take you blindfolded dancing onto bridges
and you'll say you don't to be with me
cause no one ever does and no one ever thinks of me that way
but i will even drive you home if you never let me forget about you
and if you promise me that i'm good enough for someone
cause i've got to be good enough for you
and someday soon i'll get it right
and then you'll see just how good i can be
so don't ask me about forever because right now i'm feeling lost
but there's got to be some place for me because if there isn't where will i go?
will there be some place for me and will you be waiting there for me?
if and when we get there please catch me before i crawl all the way home
but i won't stop until you do. | | |
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